The Broken In Me

Approximately 18.8 million American adults, or about 9.5 percent of the U.S. population age 18 and older in a given year, have a depressive disorder.

Nearly twice as many women (12.0 percent) as men (6.6 percent) are affected by a depressive disorder each year. These figures translate to 12.4 million women and 6.4 million men in the U.S.

Women between the ages of 25-44 are most often affected by depression with a major cause of depression in women being the inability to express or handle Anger.

Depression affects all people regardless of age, geographic location, demographic or social position.

Depressive disorders are appearing earlier in life with the average age of onset 50 years ago being 29 whereas recent statistics indicate it at just 14.5yrs in today's society.

I have Depression.
Over the years it has shown itself in many ways. I am sure I had depression as a child/teen, but it didn't completely surface until after I was married. I remember having depressing thoughts and even some suicidal thoughts. I often reflect on why I never really "became" a broken person till later. I am sure there are many different reasons, but the biggest one was simply this...
I was LOVED!!! My family was poor and crazy and large (5 kids) but I knew without a doubt that I was loved completely!! My father often held 2 or more jobs to provide for us and to keep my mom at home. He played silly little games with us and called me his Princess.
My mother devoted every second of every day to making us feel love and peace. She often went without her own needs to see that we had ours. And to this day, aside from my husband, she is my best friend.


This blog is my new journey. It is my way of dealing with "the broken in me" and sharing what it's like being broken. If you also suffer from mental illness or have a loved one with mental illness and you would like to share, feel free to email me.