It's been a while on my mental wellness journey. Things have leveled out really well. I am on some antidepressant/antianxiety meds that seem to be working ok(ish).
The thing that has made a HUGE impact for me has been the supplements called Lifelong Vitality (LLV). I didn't even realize how much they were helping until I ran out a couple of weeks ago. I ordered more and am getting back to a good place.
I have realized that my "breakdown" last year not only messed with my emotions, but I think it also wiped out a bit of me/who I am. My personality, my likes, my desires, my interests, etc. It has even affected how I deal with people and because of that, my friendships.
I am struggling to now find out who I am inside. I know who I USED to be, but it is hard trying to go back to that. Like trying to build a castle with a cup of flour.
It's scarey. I have a few blocks here and there: I like to clean; I love my oils; I love Mt. Dew. I even have an outline of where some previous blocks used to be: I love to sew; I enjoy going to church.
And I even have one block that remained from before and has gotten so much stronger (it has been my foundation through all this); I love my husband!
Some blocks have been shattered and I don't think they can be repaired and it makes me sad; friendships. But I have realized that there is only so much that I can do.
And here I am, sitting on the ground with my cup of flour - wondering what bricks I need to build. I am sad; I am scared; and I am unsure. Any ideas? Lol!
Today I decided what I will use my flour on...
Building a block to my Savior! (I kindof have a feeling that the others will fall into place)
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